M.I.A.

Baaaaaaaaaaack~ and hope it's for good now. You might assume that I've been lazy this period I was missing, well this I tell you with love, I've.been.working.my.butt.out! Woohoooo! Me and life, we have issues. Issues that are so sensitive that I can't complaint much about them. Only close friends know what I'm experiencing, and I thank them for understanding. This chewing, savouring and swallowing of the bitter gourds seems normal for me now. I’m &quote built tough &quote? Or is it psychologically because I'm a middle child? And that I'm being a &quote silent rebel &quote ? I'm strong you know...I understand them, they're not wrong for doing what they're doing, I'm not gonna put any blame on them. It’s just what they had/have to do. Someday I'll might understand this myself as well.

Okay, back to what I’ve been doing this while.. I've been doing part-time job at my cousin's restaurant (kadai kupik jak bah yau). The pay? Not that much, but I enjoy working, especially with my cousins. I am responsible to wash the dishes and cups, make sure that the kitchen and everything is clean, organized, and fly-free. Imagine that ;p Like other work environment, there sure is politics, and issues that aren't avoidable. These in fact had opened my eyes and perspective of the real world. Harshhh I tell you. My advice is to do what you got to do. If you can't work in such environment, quit! You ain't living life if you did so.

Besides working at my cousin's place, I'm also tutoring? LOL. Good experience indeed for my future-career, though I do need to revise my time management (goooooosh). My class is only once per week, which is every Wednesday. Currently I have 2 PMR students, and 1 form two student. A challenge indeed as I don't have that experience to teach mixed forms in a class. Yet I promise myself to do the best, for my own self, and theirs. Always think positive! A simple line yet an advice that I'll never forget. To enjoy life, you need to enjoy what you do, and motivation (morally and monetary) indeed has its roles in this matter.

Ooh… This week is supposed to be revision week. Next week is already the big F. And yet here I am, procrastinating. “Dua paper jak baaa” <--- You is a bad mindset! I’m so used to it that it has blended with my lifestyle. Pffts. Need something to snap me out of it. This sure is gonna be a reason for my downfall someday.

Till then, squeakers~

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